...[JeNnY]...

inNoCent?!

2006-07-02T12:54:00.000-07:00

wEeEEeh.... there's nothing wr0ng of being iNn0cEnt... honestly.. i prefer being one.. hihi than being so0o0 haha... i mean its another thing wen u almost KNOW EVRYTHING... sumtyms its nice to have sumthing SHOCKING... hihi i mean doing things dat u dont know wat wud be d effect... haha but be in place! hihi still use ur phakin mind!!! haha but sum people are PROUD wen they say "I'M NOT INNOCENT"!?? ahahaha... juz 2 pr0ve n asztig cla?!? haRsHHh... n they know evrything..?? ! tsktsk... sumtyms its not enough that u know it... that u've tried it.. that uv experienced it...it is u learn FROM iT... its nt bad 2 have mistakes!!! its just that LEARN FROM IT!!!

*ugh... sana nmn i've learn na!!! hAaaArSssHh...!

...diversion 0F m3n! hihi... PROVE ME WR0NG!

2006-07-02T12:20:00.000-07:00

aHhHhwwWW sAd 2 say.. that there alot of guysz are juz fooling around... "playing??!?!... is dat ol u F*ckin guysz WantS?!" hihi to0o bAd AhHh... then... m0st of d guys wen u will tell them dis things dat most of them are juz playing.. dat its hard 2 give a TRUST... and hard 2 believe on what they are saying... an answer ul definitely hear fr0m them is "ibahin mo ko.. Hindi aq gnun!!!"
DAMN.. i've heard this million tymsz! durh... can u guys say it in another way nmn... SsSshhheSsshh... can u please PROVE it... d0nt juz f*ckin say it... then "S2PID GIRLS... haha [ive been one them once]!! would probably believe them... actually they will pr0ve it.. ahmmm let me see... 2-4 weeks... then if they think n bumigay kna.. aHhHw p0or YOU! hihi they will stop d thngs dat u are expecting from them... and as i have said... ur "TANGA"... naniwala k nmn.. bumigay k nmn.. hAaaRrshh.. u'l miSz them... ugh!!! WOMEN OF D WORLD WAKE UP!!! haha

TESTED AND PROVEN opinion!!! haha:

1.they will court you c0z ur phakin BEAUTIFUL..PRETTY.. ATTRACTIVE etc.[ harShh.. pang display] psSsshhh... g0 2 hell... bitch!
2.they will get ur attention.. pasikat kng ano mn kulto meron cla.. 0r kng ano mng taLent mapapakita nila.. o kng hndi nmn e kng panu cla magiging santo s paningin muh!
3.they will call u in d 1st week or month... as in almost evryday! juz to pr0ve US that thay are phakin sincere!!! ayt?!?! [but honstly their calling u c0z their bored.]
4.they make u feeL that ur so0o amazing 4 them... but SH*T reality is.. after k nila masagot.. "they will make u feel lyk SH*t kpag ngsAwa n cla...!
5.its easy 4 them 2 rec0ver after a break up... [BEER lng... brkada lng.. or another s2pid CHIQ lyk u...] haha okeii n cla
6.its very hard to differentiate a GUY telling d TRUTH and a GUY telling lLIES![mostly dun s mga expert mngbola]
7.never love a guy that is FAMOUS! a famous pers0n is so0o powerful! haha yup.. honestly! they feel lyk.. s knila ung mundo!!! s0rry s mga natatamaan!
8.and lastly... its BETTER to just PLAY wid THEM! s0o0 that... no regretsz... if anything happens.. [juz know ur limitations] wen 2 stop.. and wen 2 escape! hihi

=PROVE ME WRONG! hahaha

...BLOG UPDATED! d TRUE sToRy oF mY sO0O cAlLeD LIFE! haha

2006-06-30T13:00:00.000-07:00

hMmMmp... as wat u'v read... i NeEd t0 movE on!! yap... i mean not totally moved on n aq pero... i have to...

guess hu made me realize n i have 2 move on?! haha cia rin!bec0z kchat nia once ung friend q.. he's giving an advice 2 my friend.. w/c is natamaan aq!! c0z its totally rYt e..!!! na lahat ng bagay may limitations.. khit love pa!!! share q s0me of their conversation but not all.. hihi bka may mkabasa.. tsktsk mahirap na! they are talking about d EX of my friend!

him: dami ka pang maka relasyon
him: enjoy mo lang muna
my frnd: whoaw... ikaw ba yn?
him: kung ano nanjan hav fun ka lang
my frnd: hahaha.. cge pow tnx sa advice...
him: pero cyempre dapat tama padin gnagawa mo at may limit lahat
him: ok?
him:hihi
him: advise lang poh
my frnd: ;) yap... pero actuali mas masarap pg ndi tama ung ginagawa hihihi!
him: masarap nga
him: thats true
him: pero at d end ma realize mong mas maganda tama
him: masarap ang mali pero panandalian lang
him: ang tama pang matagalan
him: tama ba ako

*** abay akalain mo s pgkalokoloko nun e may matino rn pla n naiisip... ahihi i juz tot xe n wla e... hmMmm but honestly.. dyan aq nadala e... i mean i get attracted s mga guys n GAGO tp0s may Go0d HEART or lets say may katinuan din pla.. bt d biGgEst mistake n ngwa q is dat.. *I 4GOT NA GAGO nga pla cia! haha
i guess ang dali q bumigay c0z i'm to0 young xe... usually people say n AGE DOESNT matter.... but HELLO.... c0mpared m ang pgiisip ng highscho0l s isang grad or college?! haha cyempre wen ur younger LESS pa ung experinces mo in life e... nde kpa gnun kagaling mghandle..! kaya ngayun... eventhough mer0ng mga guys n its PROVEN n more deserving than him... ewan q.. nawalan aq ng gana.. i mean... after what happened..?!?!? ugh... i know na sobrang bilis ng mga ngyare! as in super bilis... i'm glad n khit papano mabilis dn aq nkamove on.. still hoping.... sana maging friends prin kme... pr0 malabo e.. xe i get irritated wen i see him... haha!!!

*** at d tym xe n we became okeii.. mer0n png isang guy n okeii dn kme.. haha hard 2 explain.. hihi ahmmm BADGIRL E NUH... kinarma! ayun i chose him dan dat guy n mas nauna nmn tlga s knya nd i guess mdyo ms desrving.. kla q xe i'm juz playin prin e.. e un... ahihi pr0 nde nia na-eppreciate ung i chose him dan other guys xe nde nmn nia alam e!! malihim xe aq bout s mga past q... never aq ngkwen2 s knya! kaya ala rn cia alam!

*** stiLl hoping n makagawa nmn aq ng matino!!! haha... pro kalokohan n xe nagagawa q... ung g0al q xe n makalimtan cia.. hayunsz... ngkandaletche letche.. npasama tuloii aq s mga bad pers0ns.. hihi ayun.. e2 DUSA aq ngayun...!!! hAaAy.. still cant believe na nawala ung CONTROL and discipline q! shiT!!!

one thing i'm telling u guysz...
==i kn0w i'm s2pid... i'm juz playin aRound... and never wanted 2 get serious!!!
but once i get sErious TOTOO YUN! =)

===t0 c0mment nga pla.. juz click d time dun s baba ng fluttered by me... then u can put ur c0mments der!

...aii phaKiN m0veD 0n!!!!

2006-06-29T08:26:00.000-07:00

hAaAaiii...... hahaha so0o0 irritated wid my recent posts.... kainis... KORNY!!! bad bad bad!! haha hAaAaiii... phakin m0ved 0n...!!!! hAaAaaay ... juz enjoying my LIFE ryt n0w! hahaha... hmpPpPpf.... yoko muna ng gnun...!!! f*cksh8!! ahHhHhwww... basta.. go0dgirL muna aq ngayun!!!

...ruined!???

2006-06-26T03:32:00.000-07:00

y did i let all these things to happen... fuLl of ShAmE.. c0z i know its all my fault... its f*ckin bec0z of him... i still cried... i did all these things juz 2 4get bout him.. but still...!!! i'm so0ooo s2pid... i didnt use my f*ckin mind! i d0nt knw y... wats wid him ba?! i didnt care anymore bout knowing wat is RIGHT from WRONG... all i know is i've wanted 2 4get evrything... and i told 2 myself dat i'l d0 EVRYTHING juz 2 erase him on my shithead... and f*ck... my life juz turned extraordinary... i'm so0o bad.. not using my mind... its nt d JENNY dat they used 2 know... i'm TOTALLY CHANGING... but d bad news.. is i'm changing into my bad side... i never expected dat i wud be this jerk... a total jerk...

y did i let him ruined my life?!?! evrything i've done is a big mess... so0o useless.. nothing's right anymore... how can i d0 all those things right again?!
i'm so0o MAD... so0o0 gUiLty... i'm sick and tired of crying... my eg0 has left me behind... many things has changed... many oppurtunities i've wasted... and f*ck... ang dami nawala skin... juz bec0z of u... and s in evrything n nawala skin... sh*t hindi nmn KITA nakuha pabalik e... i'l be h0nest i WANT u BACK!!! eventhough ur not worth it... i still d0 miSz you!!!

so0o0 AFRAID... to d0 all those mistakes again.. so0o0 TIRED... really really TIRED!

...............still cryin!!!!!! wen will this TEARS stop fallen.... !??!?!

***my precious TEARS!!! hhaahaha

2006-06-21T10:42:00.000-07:00

hmMmmp... stiLl miSsing that cErtain thing.. pers0n.. moment.. haAaaay ["sabi nga ni coco!!] WAT TO DO?!? haha it just pAss by.. like juz aLl those blog hoppers... that are tagging on my tagboard.. haha stiLl d0nt knw if it will c0me back or visit again.. ex links?! like juz exchanging memories or moments... haha... and it will be there 4ever... .. hihihi but atleast it became a part of dis f*ckin life of mine!!!... i alwayS tried being strong enough.. being tough.. pretending i'm fine.. keepng all those TEARS inside me.... ahaha but wat do again?! hikhik.. jenny EXPLODE na e.. haha... sh*t!!! not worth it.. haha... know y i'm feeling so0o stupid?!?! c0z aLl th0se fuckin TEARS are not even worth it!!! haha o0oHhh dEr i admit it!! i CRIED!! haha really really cried.. 4 sum1 nt worth it... so0o stupid tlga... so0o mad... mad 2 myself... but one thing i'l PROMISE 2 myself... no one wud hurt me again... i'l never play wid fire again... hihihi now.. i d0nt d fuckin care anymore... ahahhaha...

many of my friends told me that my precious tears are not even worth it 4 somthng lyk dat... hhihihi i know... but i told them... u knw y i'm cryin so0o hard?!?! c0z i know its not worth it... kya mas masakit.. ahahaha so0o s2pid tlga?!?!!!!!!

2006-06-20T11:50:00.000-07:00

Haloscan commenting and trackback have been added to this blog.

2006-06-20T11:23:00.000-07:00

Haloscan commenting and trackback have been added to this blog.

d arT oF PRETENDING!!!

2006-06-19T15:42:00.000-07:00

most people pretend c0z they dont want t0 show their REAL FEELINGS... their REAL emotions! usually its bec0z of... its unusual 4 d people around them kpag ders sumthing change... i mean... wen ur known as KALOG... FUNNY.. aLways laughin lng... then suddenly u'l be sad.. quiet... prang ders sumthing wrong.. ayt?! i hate people askin me if i'm ok well infact its obvious that i'm not... dba?!?!! it really irritates me..! wen tears start 2 fall... i mean... wen i started 2 cry... stop askin me if i'm ok... just leave me alone... then talk 2 me.. kpag ok n q.. c0z i will stop cryin wen i'm ok... wen all the hurts inside me just left me behind.. ahaha i mean.. its fyn wid me if u'l ask me 2 cry on ur shoulders... if u wud ask me that u wud probably listen 2 my problems.. but when i say i'm ok.. just leave me... c0z i need myself 2 think on my own... to have my own decision... 2 atleast realize evry wr0ng decision i've done... c0z u'l never learn fr0m it wen ur not d one hu realize it... haaAaaaaaYyYszzz hmmmm paranoid again... f*ck f*ck f*ck!!! gGgGggggRRRrrRrHHh!!!

Lasingera kba?!?!

2006-06-12T00:27:00.000-07:00

kung lasingera/lasingero ka?! tayo'y mag inuma na!!! [ i used tagalog ngayun kc independence day ng mga pilipino] hehe pra maiba nmn!

wahahha asyuz ba?!?! haha HhMMmm drinkin came up to my mind lng...c0z yesterday someone asked me n makipginuman dw s knya d both of us lang.. haha lols... cyempre ndi aq pumayag!! hahaha
i juSt miSs drinkin... and geTtin drunk... lols ang bata mo pa lasingera kna?!?! weEehHhEeE no!! i juSt drink kpag occAtional.. o kaya pg 3p lng...1St time i g0t drunk wen i was 12... but i'm wid my brother dat time kaya ayus lng... i d0nt drink nmn na hindi TRUSTWORTHY ung ta0 n kasma q e... wahahha cyempre...

sagutin ang tanong ko?!?! lols

sa pgkakaalam ko... bawal pra s mga minors ang uminom ng alak?! dba?! per0 bkt s bansang pilipinas e kahit saan nakakabili nito!??! sa tindahan... khit alam nila n elemntary plng e binibgyan n nila at hinahayaan bumili?!!? lalo na ang napaka FAMOUS na redhorse ng pilipinas... haha at bkit nga ba ang mga kabataan ay nagiging habit nrin ang pag inom.. kpag birthday.. x-mas... new year... etc .. at khit pa binyag ay pgkatpos ng kainan.. e tlgang may inuman?!?! ***d2 kc sa abudhabi bawal bumili ang minors... kya wen ur not 18 and above u really cant buy alak.. tsaka ndi kc pakalat kalat ung alak d2 lyk dyan s pinas..

1 thing i hate wen i'm drunk it hAs 2 efFectS kc skin e... its either... *hahalakhak aq ng s0bRaAa... s0bRaNg kulEt... s0brang high... o kaya nmn i'm going 2 be *EMOTIONAL.... f*ck.. i h8 being emotinal... sh*T kadramahan s buhay! haha yoko ng ganun... and i hate people na ngsusuka wen deyr drunk.. putah... handle urself nmn .. ahaha s bagay drunk nga e.. wala lng c0z skin i will drink kng hangang saan ung kaya q.. i'l be drunk but i still can handle my self!!!!

pra skin kc.. DRNKING n ung mdy0 ok lng n maging BISYO or habit.. than SMOKING... DRUGS... SUGAL... atleast wen u got drunk isang gabi lng.. tpos ala n ung tama dba?!?! HhHhMmM per0 sana wen u drink not to0 much... lahat nmn ng to0 much masama ryt?!?! kaya try 2 handle urself nd know ur limitations wen 2 stop... ayt?!?! hehe

***why people use drugs

2006-06-11T08:28:00.000-07:00

Following are some of the reasons people say they do drugs to feel good or change the situation:

1.Because they want to fit in.
2.because they want to escape or relax
3.because their BORED
4.because the MEDIA says its C0OL!
5. Because they think it makes them seem grown-up.
6. Because they want to rebel.
7. Because they want to experiment.

********* pumasok n b sa isipan nio n magDRUGS?!?! haha many of our youth are using drugs... for certain reasons... t0 be co0l.. to 4get about their problems.. t0 relax.. t0 experiment.. to rebel.. t0 fit in.. etc.. pero ikaw?!?! as in ikaw?!? pumasok nba sa isipan m n gumamit nito?!?!

honestly speaking... i'm a 14 yr old highscho0l student... but once it came up on my mind to use drugs... i mean not at his moment of my life.. pro naisip q na 2..3..4..5..6 years from i'm going to use it.. u knw why??!?! c0z as wat i've seen and heard fr0m d tv or lets just say from d MEDIA... drugs helps us 4get about our problems... enthough it illegal.. and it has lots of bad effects it will really came into ur minds f using it e... especially for those people na madaling maIMPLOWENSYAHAN ng b but i've realized na only WEAK PEOPLE try those stuFfs.. i mean their are many things in this world that u can d0... dba!??! pra mging useful ka.. if u have a problem... try 2 SOLVE it... dont lo0k 4 another problem 2 come up with... have your own decision... know what is RIGHT from WRONG!!! haha un lng... =)

*PHILIPPINE INDEPENDENCE!

2006-06-09T11:14:00.000-07:00

share q lng s0me of our pics... ahihi

HhHmmmm... we pe0ple fr0m abudhabi just finish celebr8ing d philippine independence day yesterday... june 8 2006... eventhough we are here abr0ad we still celebr8 independence day... after 3 weeks.. or almost 1 month of practicing its really a great feeling that your performing on stage wid d crowd.. watching you... clapping their hands... w0w... to all d performers..."CONGRATSZ!!!!" heheh d 1st runner up in d tfc popstar 2006, d dancer hu danced pandango, hu danced interpretative dances...[s0rry 4got their dance group names] d pisco dance troop.. and d PNS dance tro0p... stage play..at cympre... d speech choir... lols hAaay its nice s0cializing wd other people... other gradelevels.. and from d other scho0ls... differnt personalities.. diffrnt characteristics... diffrences of age... gender... but we still have d same nationality being a FILIPINO... and hmmm actually... i'm proud to be one... i w0uld lyk 2 thank cEss 4 taking d video of our speech choir... wid d support of kevin... roen.. earl and nicole.. anddd c0c0 dn.. even she's far away from me.. xine nrin lols... and wid d c0mpany of d speech choir membersz hubert,ate stepai,te hazel,te dianne, te erika,te myca, Fae... and te joycE... Hhhmmm tnx nga pla kay ate joyce 4 d make up.. lols.. hehe c0ngrats rin kay te joyce nd te erika.. 4 winning d painting contest... sh*t proud 2 be a student fr0m PNS!!! ehehe sir NOLI pa!?! tsktsk.. iba tLga.. ahaha...

i Love him***

2006-05-31T04:48:00.000-07:00

"I LOVE THIS MAN"

No one falls in love by choice, it is by CHANCE.
No one stays in love by chance, it is by WORK.
And no one falls out of love by chance, it is by CHOICE. see the love of my life, because --without HIM---I am nothing

***m3m0rabiLy3ah

2006-05-29T12:22:00.000-07:00

i'l aLways misZ d memoriesz wid u guysz... still dont know kng kelan q maoovercome ung sadness and boredom ng wala kau... ahaihihhi so dramatic but its REAL... i'd always tried making myself happy... enjoying life ng wala kau.. but honestly its HARD... coz u guysz became a IG part in my LIFE... honestly.. since ng nwala kau... especially dun s mga real true friends q... i have done something n pinagsisisihan q... kla q kc... un ung way pra mwala ung boredom q.. ung pgkamiss q sa inyo.. ung pgka deppressed q... lols.. ahihihi i'm always pretending i'm ok.. but hell NO.... i'm trying to be tough and d0nt cry nemore... coz i'm sick and tired of crying and missing all of u guysz... hAaaysz... but f*ck mali pla... sana umiyak nlng ako... namaga lng mata ko... than doing thingsz and stuffs i'm not used 2 do.. na indi q lam kng hangan kelan q pgsisisihan... shit!!! para s inyo toh!!

memorabilyah...

....curiosity!!! sh*t!!!

2006-05-28T01:49:00.000-07:00

peOple do certain thinGsz thAt theY arE not uSed t0 d0 c0z deyr being curi0us bout it... beinG curiOus iS g0od.. iF u kn0w ur LimiTations... if u probably know wAt is rYt from wr0Ng... anD daEyMn... huhuhuhu.... i rEalLy haTe borEdom c0z boredom MakEs me d0 somEthNg thAt itS not mE!!!! daeyMn.... its not JENNY!!!! yEs itS n0t mE!!!! sh*t!!!

....juZ a LitTLe bit!!!!!!!!!

2006-05-20T16:09:00.000-07:00

a liTtLe bit of haPpinEss in my Life... ahahahaha ohHh yEah... juZ a LittLe bit... ahihii c0z mostLy... my lifE iS fuLl oF sh*T?!!!!!! daeYmNnn... fuLl oF aDv3ntuRe... gRrhHh... adv3nTuRe... sumtymS i d0nT know if i'm stiLl on d rYt trAck... multipLe id3ntiTy... miXtuRe oF beiNg g0od anD baD... d3rS a bAd siDe and g0od sidE of me... i juSt d0nt knoW wen is d ryt tym to shoW thoSe characters!!! lols hAaaAay i CaN bE iNn0cEnT.... i w!sh i Am,,,!!! hmmmpfff... i knoW d!s is nt d j3Nny dat evryone uSed 2 know.... PEOPLE change... and i do chaNge... i juSt hop3 i'l chanGe n d g0od side... ahHhwww.... haaaay... yikeeeEess.... iTs hArd 2 c0mbiNe wAt u lYk to Wat iS riGht... gRrhhHh conflict.... hAaaaY.... i JusT d0nT waNt 2 l0ok at d negative side of my life... at dis vEry m0mEnT i cAn sAy my liFe is *c0mplicAted *sAd *f*ckeD up.... bUt i jusT want 2 pRetEnd i'm haPpy... ke3p all d worRieS inSide... lEt d haPpy fAce RULE!!!

16-05-06

2006-05-16T12:18:00.000-07:00

ahMmm... why iS it i caNt sEe d gud SiDe of mY liFe...?? certain thingsz thAt iS haPpeNing that therE are no ExPlanations aT aLl... doinG deciSionS w/o evEn thinkiNg d c0nsequence of it... being impulsive?!? rYt cEssY??? s0o many questions s0o0 many FeaRs!?!? thats what i have... some things juSz happEns with no questions asked.... there are only 2 kinds of peoPle... manloloko and ngpapaloko.... sometimes you have to be a PRETENDER... its hard 2 pretend.... its haRd if ur not being true to urself and to somebody but sometimes its better 2 be one... if uR going ta pLay a game... be surE u know and you can follow ur ruLes... i d0nt wnt 2 plAy a game that i kn0w in d end... i'l be a loser!!! i dont want 2 get hurt... its just that... if someone lied.fooled.hurt you.. then just do d same way.... in this worLd you cant be sure of anyThing... i'm jusT being caReful... but i'm afrAid of d game i'm playing ryt n0w... i think i should QUIT!!!

sAdnEss cAme aL0nG...!!!

2006-05-14T22:13:00.000-07:00

wwheEww... its s0 sad that many oF d sPecial personS n my lifE are g0ing to leaVe.... daeymn... ouchy nmn!!! i'l juSt miSs ol d m3moriEs thaT we oL shArEd 2GedeR!!! huhuhuhu karL has left abudhabi.... hus n3xt?!?!? hahaha karL i miSzYOu!!! la n tambay s houS3 nmin!!! huhu
v!n.... i'l miSzyou d!n... tnX sA laHaT.... sa mGa shArEd sEcrEts n10.... daeymn... haha sA mgA kaLokohAn n10 since 1st yr... mArGarEt!!! hAaaAy... tnx for evrything gArEt... hihi sa lahat ng pinagsmahan ng kada... basTa lang kalimutan nd d2 prin kme plage 4 u... i'l miSs d shoWdown nio ni nicole!! hehe d dancer of d sophomore!!ahaha lols!!!! marika!! i'l miszyou din!LESLIE!!!! haaayyy buhbye!!! i'l miSs d girL na WARFREAK!!! ahaha tnx s lahat... i'l miSz ur houSzy... ung evrymorning b4 dun kme s house nio nanggugulo... !! hihi !! maXinE!!!! ahahaha la lng... bago lng toh pro dami n nmin memories nito... since early skul days plang ng 2nd yr!!! ahaaha sztig noh?!?! hmpfff............ anD prA kay c0c0letskie... huhu i'l miSz you s0bRa... f*ck tnx s lahat ng haPpy memories.. sa lahat ng kalokohan n10... still 2gdr khit palabsin ng teachers... khit na ala n lahat... pro haha still d2 tau aryt!??! khit n dami n ngyari.. daemn...!!! i'l misz your prescence in my life!!!

sh*t!!!! mamimisz q kayong lahat!!!! muaH1!!

...nakakasAwa.....nakakapaGod...!!!!

2006-04-13T15:02:00.000-07:00

..sh*t yoko na.. nakakapagod.. nakaksawa rin pLa... aLways arguing and fighting... hhaaaaaay.... i aDmit itS my f*ckin faUlt... bkt ba kc gni2 aq...!?!??! sh*t dali un sAyO... kng sAna... nging ok tau nun hangang ngayun... eh di sana ndi aq natatakot ng gan2... ndi ako sa ngkaron ng FOBIA... ngayun... lol... i'm fuLl of questions... i'm not sure of eVrYthiNg... !!!! itS lyk.. it sEems evryonE is lyk u na..... lam q nmn kc gnun tlga e... i'm being sooo aFraiD.... fUlL of fEARS!!!!!! xieT... minSan di na tama.... maXado kc pLaying SAFE... coz i'm tooo aFraid... afraid 2 get hurt by sum1... kaya gni2... i'm sooo duwag na..!!!!!!!! haaaay... juz wishing n sana maging ok n kme... i knw its mah fault nmn e... always being lyk dis... a spoiled f*ckin BRat...!!!

....faLling?!!??!?!??! ahuh.............

2006-03-03T10:05:00.000-08:00

hmpfff.... ahhhhh.... i really dont know what is it... iT aLl sTaRtEd wiTh a siMpLe 3ppinGsz of d barkada... then...... iT haPpen EvEryDaY... a usual happEniNg oF aN eVrydAy liFe...haha trip lng... asaran... joke.. then siDdEnLy... iBa nA... eWan... cguro iT hapPeNs juZ bec0z of hahahha.... i really dont know.... pero... as what always happens.... indi pwede.................. coz iTs vEry COMPLICATED.....

2006-01-29T07:18:00.000-08:00

***noThiNg cHaNgE***

wHy r dEr pEoPlE thAt wouLd juSt fEeL uR prEseNcE wHeN tHeY wAnt tO..?!?! or d peOpLe tHey uSed 2 gO aLoNg wiTh iS noT bY dEr siDe... !??!?! iTsz juSt tHat.. i wAnT aLl to Be tReaTed FaiRLy... sAnA u rEaLizE na dEr r peOpLe gEttiN hURt wEn uR juSt igNoriNg tHeM.. anD diDnt cAre bouT tHere PrEseNcE.. i kneW iT frOm d sTaRt na paG nagiNg ok nA kau.. u'l jUst LeFt mE bEhiNd.. haha LOL. but 4 me ... cguro its ok na rin..i'M gLAd tHaT i'L bE wiTh oThEr perSoNs cOmpany.. so thaT i'l not bE usEd to hAng witH u aLl tHe tYm.. i'M juSt wAnt 2 tELl you tHat s0medaY... u'l rEaLizE otHerS pReSenCe wHen thEir nOt aRoUnD... iF you woUld rEaLizE buT i guEss a peRsoN lYk you.. woNt reALyz anything.. he's RIGHT wHateVer hAPpeNs u woNt cHaNgE... =(

**giVe uP?!??!?!**

f*cK... itSz reAlLy hArd to gEt aLonG wiTh yoU... iTsz hArd tO aPprOaCh yoU...buT sh*t... i'm miSsInG yoU... wHaT d f*ck... what do u wAnt me t0 dO?!??!?! gGggRrrHhhh... minSan NAKAKASAWA na!!!!! SaMe oLd miStAkEs.. paulit ulit nlng.. sh*t nmn...

alone

2006-01-13T11:11:00.000-08:00

..!?!??!..

aLoNe aGaiN... haaAaaY... sTaRtiNg to hate LIFE...!!! ahmmm... start of d cLasS tom.. after how many weeks.. here we go again.. StAring at thOsE sarcastiC tEacHeRs... listening 2 thEre.. muSt leArn LeSsOns..!! i'm alLrEaDy usEd to sLeEp at 3/4/5 am... ahahaha hmpfff... panu na yan... i'Ll miSz those daySz ahaha.. yoko pa muna pumasok..!!!!!!! pUhHhLlEsssZZz!!!!!!! ahahah

kinDa iRritaTed... pLSz nmn d0nt use me juSt 2 know something.. bout... grhhh... find a way to know it.. basta wag sakin.. i'm enjoying ur company.. d way u are.. but i hate d way u mke me feEl.. ugh... haha.. basta.. nxt tym nlng.. try 2 study muna.. heeheehee bhye!

2006-01-11T04:05:00.000-08:00

***aCciDeNts hApPeN***

i toLd yoU iT wOuLd hApPeN
aHhh. u iDiOt!!!
yOu'D nEvEr hEed mY adviCe
oh.. yoU sHithEad..

bUt!!! !?!?!?!
d biGgEsT aCciDeNt is...
m3 fAlLin fOr
yOu?!?!??!

...

2006-01-09T15:55:00.000-08:00

.... d onLy thiNg .....
hmpfff... its 3:58 am.. and wer going to dubai tom. haha i wish i cud wake up.. ahahhaa hmpff.. soo muck 4 dat nonsense thingy.. ahmmm.. ahwww.. depressed...!??!?! not really pro..

d only thing.... i could do so that i wont do d same mistakes that 've done b4.. is 2... warfreak.. ?!?!? hmpff... wat a term.. di nmn.. kaya lng... hirap intindihin noh??!?! i know u really can't.. kc khit aq.. i dont like wat i am doing.. i jusz dont want 2 get hurt again.. aahhhwwww... no one cud understand me.. coz no one knows wat i fEeL... doNt bE fOolEd wiTh sMiLes..laughs..jokes that u get from me.. coZ u'V got no iDea of what i reaLly FeeLs... hmpfff... to u... jusz wanna tell dat i'm doing this not because i hate u.. or gan2 tlga aq.. itsz just dat i'm afraid of what will happen if i became more closer to you.. mAs ok na 4GeT 4GeT nlngsz.. ayt!??!?! aahhhmmmm...... i may look s2pid in d way i acT.. but to tell u honestly.. i hate wat i am doing... i lreally enjoi ur company and d conversation we olweisz had.. i will misZ ol of tHoSe kulitans.. and evrything.. but i have to be a little bit.... away from you... juSt tke cRe of her.. ***** aLL ursz na!!!

.c0nfused.

2006-01-08T13:20:00.000-08:00

.c0nfus3d.

confuSed pareh... soooBbBbrAaaa... bad3p.. sh*t...

....

2005-12-31T08:39:00.000-08:00

hAPPY???? new year...

my new years resolution??? wud be??? ahuh!?!?!
hmmppffff...
1.be more sensitive wid the feelings of other... nd be insensitive bout my own feelingsz... ahahhaha getsz!??!?!
2. ahmmm.... concentrate more on my studies cguro... medyo layloh... muna sa gimik... can i do this!??!?! ahihihih
3.mag diet... ahihhihh
4. more tym wid my family... huhu... haha juz kiddin.. haha
5. wag na maging yawasap... pakatinoh na... owsz?!?!? hahah

nobody let me feels the real happiness... d happiness that i'm really lukin 4... i'm not saying i'm not happy wid the way i am... wid the presence of my family and friends... but derz sumthing missing... i really dont know what!?!??! how??!?!? why!?!?! or who!?!? hahahaha ahmmm...... wohhoouuu.... but i can say nmn na im contented wid wat i have.... cyempre.. i'm luking 4ward into sumthing i really want to have or to achieve but i think its just normal to a person diba!?!??!??! atleast my DREAMS.... ahahahaha

...

2005-12-26T14:46:00.000-08:00

....!?!?!?!?!??!....

all of them thought i am happy
they just dont know i'm not lucky
but i have to live my life whole heartedly
and just go on with the flow even unwantedly

deep insyd mE i'm screaming
then all alone in my room i'm hiding
coz i rEaLly dOnT know whats happening
coz i was left by u HANGING

i have realize my real feeling
that i always try smiling
but deep insyd i'm crying....
and all of ME was just pretending

i always try to be coOl
even though sadness always ruLE
i dont want to be a fooL
in this life so crueL...... aahhhwww

i'd rather want to EnTer tHe wOrLd of fAnTasY
thAn tO liVe thIs lifE with the heaT of reality...!!!!

****hi evryone... gimme a tittle nmn oh.. hhehhehe la lng... tag nio lng*** tnx ^jEn^

....iz mY x-mAs mErRy??!?!? will be my new year HAPPY!??!?!?!

2005-12-26T14:19:00.000-08:00

hmmmpffffff..... my x-mas was great... i'm contented with what i have.... i'm happy coz i'm with my family.... take note wer COMPLETE!!!! hehehehe but... i jusz dont know... i hAve diS wierd feeling... ahahahha i jUst hopE my NEW YEARS EVE will be betTer... i mean... sana ENJOY ... i really hope so...

i want to eNjoI dis vacation with my family and friends..... hmpfff ahahaha i dont want to do ol those silly projects.... it really SUCKSZ!!!!!!!!!! ahahahah ahahahah hmmm..... as of now i'm getting bored with my life not just like b4.... ewan q basta.... b4 kc... parang super adventure... wahahahhaha i'm looking forward into sumthing NEW.... i'm longing 4 sum1 i dont know... wat d hek?!?!?! ahahhahaha

merry x-mas and happy new year!!!!!!!

2005-10-23T06:03:00.000-07:00

lA lng... poSt q lNg pawe...!

--->iN a rElAtIoNshiPs wiTh oUrSeLvEs... we shouLd aCcEpt thE unchAngeabLe and change the unacceptabLe...
--->iT iS nOt tHe yeaRs iN yOur lYf.. but tHe lYf iN yOuR yEaRs tHaT cOuNts....
--->wHen we cAnNot finD cOnTeNtmen iN ouRsELves.... it is uSeLess 2 finD it eLsewhere!

LoVe KoWtsz...
--> oweisz tke d advantage of d oppurtunity 2 show ur love with othrsz... coz der may cum a tym wen u have sooo much love 2 give... but no one 2 share with...!
--->u came 2 touch me... to comfort me.. 2 hold my tyt.. and den i luvd u.. but then u said that all u did was any friend wud do...
-->u will know that u love someone when u want him/her to be happy... even if that means "ur not a a part of their happiness"
---> whO do u run to... when the only person who can make u stop crying ... is exactly the one... who is making u cry...!
--->why am i afraid to lose u... when ur not even mine!!!
---> hAving sum1 luk u... has made me happy in million ways... and if ever i have to let u go... i wud find a million reasons to make u stay....
"""""some people.. think that its holding on that makes sum1 strong... sometimes its letting go!!

2005-10-14T04:32:00.000-07:00

-mE nd garet...-

--->Lab q toh! yeah!..ahaha!<-----

....LiTrAtOsz....

2005-10-08T10:54:00.000-07:00

haha la lang.... basta... the best tong mga toh...!

=nOnSeNsE=

2005-10-06T11:30:00.000-07:00

hehehe la Lng... i'm kinda bored... thats why i'm going to post this thingy ... even though i know that no one will read this...! i'm getting irritated with this filipino project.... the heck... oh... well...
hmmffff nothing to say much... but heres a quote 4 yah... wahahaha
** i'm sori if i caused u pain... i'm sori if i made u walk away.... i'm sori if i misundrstand u!!!
but one i ignored to see... i was crying so hard... beging.... "PLEASE DONT LEAVE ME"

hehe i got tired thinking bout.... what the hek am i going to do with my life?! what am i going to do to be worthy?! but still i got no clue... what would be the answer..! hahaha pro cguro nmn meron diba!?!!! hehehhehe thats all for now!!!!!!